Febby’s Heart Telling The Truth

    its been two weeks i have not back home…today i finally back home..last time, i alwes like to stay outside my home….but now, i feel tat home is the best place for everyone shelter…..well, i sick for a few days..my frens care me a lot…but i can tell u, mom’s care is alwes the best…she is the one who understand ur body..hehe….
    it also has been two weeks i let go evrything….suppose to say tat i try my best to let go evrything….sometime i ask myself, y should i care u so much? i really could not answer this question…it comes fr my heart..my heart wanna care u…my heart does not want u to get lost..my heart wanna attract ur attention…..my heart does not want to stay away fr u….its all bout my heart..not my body…
    many ppl act come after me and try to comfort me…..but i m too stubborn…i alwes response to them "u are not me, u would nvr know the true feeling"…they then end up silent…its true…although u guys knows and experience a lot of things..but i can tell u..in this world, there are billion and billion of things and situation….all is dif…u can nvr come across the exactly same situation….so even u tell me tat u understand me but i can tell u"u only understand 20% of my situation"….just the parties involved knows the situation vry well….u all nvr know wat had happened…the best of the best and oso the worst of the worst……u nvr know…
    act although i say i wanna let go, but still i m hoping for some hope….i know tat i m too stupid……y do i still looking for the hopeless hope…..crazy….i m really mad…i dunno wheres the worthiness of u….i alwes ask myself "do u worth it?"…sorry, no answer….i m finding the answer……

this week alr week 5…i feel like doin nth…feel so sad nowadays…just two months.many things happen to me…i m so regret and dissapointed…i regret to start evrything..regret to think too much from the start…i regret to make myself so complicated..i oso regret to let go the good things fr my own self…i feel so regret..meanwhile dispointment oso enter my heart…i get hurt many many times….one time, i let go, sec,let go, third…let go…but it seems like hurting me fr the starting point…nvr ever care bout my feelings….i m just a normal girl..if u think i dun deserve, den dun pull me in this ship….i dun belong to this kind of situation…i feel so disspointed….i nvr have this feeling b4..thanks for the happy moment and the nightmares….waiting for u makes me vry tired….looking hope fr u oso make me sad……wat i can say here is i m done….i have do my part….i have gave more than wat suppose to be….i m tired now…so this game, u play it vry well…u win, and i lose..thanks god..

That last kiss tasted like tobacco …the sad, bitter aroma

Around this time tommorrow… i was hoping to know

Where will you be?

Who will you be thinking about?

You are always gonna be my love

Even if I find someone else

You are always goanna be the one

The time that was standing still

Is about to start moving again

There’s a lot of things I don’t want to forget …esspecially you

Around this time tomorrow

I will be crying

Thinking about you

You will always be inside my heart

There’s always a place for you in it

I hope that I have a place in your heart too..

Now and forever

you are still the one

You are always gonna be my love

Even if I find someone else

hello everyone…….its me again…"y did i still repeating the same things since i know it is totally wrong"….do ever this question pop-up in ur mind?..i belif tat many of us had been asking this question ever since…..

last few days, i did something tat i know i m not suppose to do so….i know i mustn’t but i could not control myself…in someday in the past, i told myself " you gotta be strong, dun get influence by anyone"…so tat, i would not repeat the same problem….but now, i still hit into it….

i m vry curious about everyones attitude…i dun understand y do ppl nvr appreciate watever they have …me myself oso one kind of this…sometimes i dun feel good to be like this …but i couldn’t control myself….i dun really appreciate the one who really treat me good…the one who care me a lot….sometimes i dun even care about their feeling…i feel bad actually….i belif many ppl oso same as me…they dun appreciate the one tat are sincere and kind….they take ppl for granted…can anyone guide me?

teenage life is a moment when the teenagers enjoys their life most..but meanwhile oso get influent the most….but for me, the moment of our teenage life is the moment that we should enjoy all the time…it doesnt really take too much of ur whole life time….just a few years…once u miss these few years…then u will regret in the future…dun tell me during the time when u have ur own family…u can go to fool around with frens …NO WAY….it wont be the same… i enjoy my very moment with my frens…although there are laughter ,tearing time, hurting feeling, and also mad……they are the one who makes jokes, lend their shoulders…..i will forever appreciate all of u…thanks to my frens…

hihi……….evryone………….this is my first time sharing my blog with u guys…….hahahha……nice experience…… now only i know tat blogging would be so much fun……well…..dun know wad to tell liao……so see u next time in the next episode…..same time…same place….check it out!!!hehehhe……